First off, thanks to littlehollyleaf for reminding me a while ago about the lyrics to Supernatural’s sort of adopted theme song. There have been so many references to variations on blindness and seeing this season that I’m not even going to try to link to them all. I’d have to link to half of what I’ve written and a lot of what other people have written as well. Let’s just say that the above lyric to Carry On Wayward Son pretty much says it all.
And Alex, Annie, Alexis, Ann really drove the point home. This episode had so many instances of warnings for people to “see” what is right there.
What Jody represented in 9x19 was a person devastated by grief and loss coming to terms with the fact that sometimes you can not fill the hole in your life with outside forces, or with other people. She knows she has things she needs to deal with, but she’s not hiding from them anymore. She’s not going to depend on someone else to be the thing that dulls the ache. She’s going to feel the ache because sometimes that’s all you can do. But she is going to live because she is strong, and so is Dean. What she realized in the end is something he will come to know as well.
While Jody represented this grief-stricken but hopeful future, Mama vamp represented the dark co-dependency that lives inside Dean. She also represented John and all of the things he placed on his boys. She is the thing inside his head telling him he can’t change, that this is all there is, that duty and family are everything. She manipulated Alex in to doing what she wanted, convinced her it was all there was, that she had to stay. Alex was terrified of letting her Mama down, and I was reminded of Sam’s confession to Dean in that church. That his greatest sin was all the times he felt he let Dean down.
Dean is co-dependent, but so is Sam, and he wants out. He wants out, but the hope manifested by Jody that lives inside Dean wants out as well. He just doesn’t know how to do it yet. When Jody killed Mama vamp that said to me that no matter how dark things are about to get, in the end Dean will claw his way out of the darkness. Dean will let go. He has to let go. He wants to let go, he just doesn’t know how to yet.
What Jody and Alex had in the end wasn’t a bond that was dependent on one another for survival, but one that acknowledged they can still lean on each other for love and support. This is what Sam and Dean need. Neither of them are ever going to be okay in the traditional sense, not with what they have come to know, and all the grief they have suffered. But what they can have is hope, and a relationship built on shared grief and love that isn’t toxic or suffocating. There is a light at the end of that tunnel, for both Sam and Dean, but in the end they will not choose each other. They will choose themselves, and then the healing can begin.
What Jody represented in 9x19 was a person devastated by grief and loss coming to terms with the fact that sometimes you can not fill the hole in your life with outside forces, or with other people. She knows she has things she needs to deal with, but she’s not hiding from them anymore. She’s not…
8x23 // 9x19
I think it’s important to note that while Alex didn’t want to let her parental figure down, in the end she made the right choice for herself. While 8x23 on the surface was a huge step back, season 9 has been launching Sam and Dean head first into the reality that what they have is broken. They may not know how to fix it yet, but there is no going back from here. Alex broke free, and is hopefully on the long road to recovery, and I believe sooner or later Sam (and Dean) will be as well.
1. a shirt of haircloth, formerly worn by penitents and ascetics.
1. austere and self-sacrificing
Those of you who follow this blog know that I don’t usually take the time to discuss SPN unless there is something I feel exceedingly strongly about. Today that something is Robert Berens. And let me tell you why.
I’ve never been fond of filler episodes, and in Season 9, for some reason, they’ve been especially painful. (I’m still actively trying to repress “Dog Dean Afternoon” and that Vestal Virgin episode.) But something happened in “Alex Annie Alexis Ann” (the title which in itself is a clever homage to Martha Marcy May Marlene, an awesome and creepy movie about cults) which made me put my other electronics away and actually pay attention. That something was good writing.
Berens writes well for the boys, which, I would argue, is easy enough to do because their characters are so well-established. In this episode though, he managed to give us “Look at me, bitch!” That single line was simultaneously “oops there go my pants” hot and horrifying. It brought the entire Mark of Cain story line to bear on our minds in just four little words. Powerful stuff.
I’ve mentioned elsewhere (actually in my rant about Castiel’s characterization in S9) that Berens also writes Cas well. Think “Heaven Can’t Wait” and “Captives.” He was the only writer this entire season who did not treat the human!Cas storyline as a big joke. Knowing that, I wasn’t surprised but was still equally pleased to see how well he did with Jody Mills’ character in 9x19. But it wasn’t just Jody - he also wrote two really well-developed and poignant additional female characters. Even the character of Mama, who could have been dismissed as “monster of the week” became a nuanced and heartfelt creation. The scenes between Jody and “Alex” felt really genuine and sincere (and, of course, part of the credit is due to the actresses themselves - but they couldn’t have done it without the dialogue they’ve been written). Whereas normally my tendency would have been to “Oh shit, the boys are gone, I’m zoning out,” I paid attention, and I emotionally invested in their story.
In conclusion, Robert Berens has become my favorite writer on SPN. Please let him write more episodes. Let him write all the episodes. Let him write all the episodes on all the shows.
just a duck feeding his fish.
Crows are scary
- use tools
- Can be taught to speak (like parrots)
- Have huge brains for birds
- like seriously their brain-to-body size ratio is equal to that of a chimpanzee
- They vocalize anger, sadness, or happiness in response to things
- they are scary smart at solving puzzles
- some ravens stay with their mates until one of them dies
- they can remember faces
- SIDENOTE HERE BECAUSE HOLY SHIT. They did an experiment where these guys wore masks and some of them fucked with crows. Pretty soon the crows recognized the masks = douchebag. But the nice guys with masks they left alone. THEN, OH WE’RE NOT DONE, NO SIR crows that WEREN’T EVEN IN THE EXPERIMENT AND NEVER SAW THE MASK BEFORE knew about mask-dudes and attacked them on sight. THEY PASSED ON THE FUCKING INFORMATION TO THEIR CROW BUDDIES.
- They remember places where crows were killed by farmers and change their migration patterns.
Guys I’m really scared of crows now.
Also, if you harass, attack, or scare a crow or crows. They will remember you FOR LIFE. Yes, for life. They don’t give a shit you if threw a rock at them when you were 8. They will remember you forever. I’m glad crows aren’t around where I live. *phew*
I love crows so much
would you be mine?
I have this dumb headcanon that Castiel is fond of birds… and that they think he’s pretty neat too.
Dean Winchester in 9x18 | Alex Annie Alexis Ann
WOW! That’s the DULL edge of the blade he’s using!
What makes this moment especially disturbing for me is how Dean takes his time to savour the killing (and this isn’t the first time we’ve seen him do this…). He wants his victim to look him in the eyes, both so that he is the last thing the vampire sees before he dies, and so that Dean can see the full progression from life to death that his hands will cause. And he pushes the blade (yes, the dull edge!) only so far at first, because killing gives him such a high, he has to hold onto that moment, not rush it, make it last. And when he makes that final push and kills the vampire, it’s almost as though we can see he is coming down from that high.
Sorry to add commentary to your gifs but I thought this scene was so brilliantly done, disturbing, worrying, and yet still just a glimpse of the true darkness Dean is and will be capable of…
Word Of The Week
Komorebi ~ Sunlight that filters through the leaves of trees.
☮ ❤ ॐ
So, are we not discussing the fact that Sam winked at Jody???
This is the single most amazing thing I have ever seen [x]
I CAN’T COMPREHEND THIS MUCH SKILL